Long time

 I can't believe how long it has been since I have been on here. I guess my life has been so boring that I didn't feel the need to update. :) The last couple weeks I have been super busy getting ready for my classroom. I am really excited about the opportunity, but there are moments where I am so nervous about it. I think it is because it has been so long since I have been in the classroom. I have meetings starting on the 24th, then on the 26th I have a retreat with the students, and on the 27th the students are in my room. I only have 2 weeks left. I am almost ready, at least I think. I still have to plan half of Bible class and all of grammar class. I think grammar is the class that I am least looking forward to. As of right now I am going to have a total of 15 students between 7th and 8th grade, so it will be nice to have time to give students the attention that they need.

Other than school I don't think there is too much more going on. Esme (my puppy) is growing so fast, but she is starting to be a really good dog

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I hope all of you are having a great week!

Senior year Part 2 of 3

Well,

I am now in my second semester of my senior year. I can not believe that I have this semester and one more left. Life is so crazy sometimes. This week I started classes. They are definitely going to keep me busy. I think between classes and my job and my other responsibilities it is going to be just as crazy as all the other semesters. I just hope this time I get more sleep. LOL.

This week has kind of been crazy for me. Some parts of it almost felt surreal. My days have gone so fast and have been so crazy that the next morning I wake up wondering if they ever happened. Hopefully things will slow down and I can take everything as it comes. This week I have felt like a lot of things are out of my hands and I just have to wait and see how things go. I probably need to get used to this because life isn't always up to me, but I really struggle with this. I want to be able to control things and not be vulnerable to others and to the situations around me. I hate and fear that feeling. I try so hard to control things and keep myself from being vulnerable, but things happen and I end up confused and waiting for the end. I am kind of just rambling and trying to figure things out. I hope this makes sense!

Anyway, I will quit with my ramblings for now!

Have a great day and thanks for reading!

Beth

Wow!

I can not believe how long it has been since I have written on here. Life has been so crazy! I am almost done with the first semester of my senior year, which completely baffles me. Time went so fast. It is kind of scary. This time next year I will be getting ready to graduate. I think at this point I am not even sure if life is good or not. I have been so busy that I haven't really had time to think about it. I now have a job, which fits in my schedule perfectly, and the work isn't too bad. I sit at a computer for a few hours and type in reciepts and try to organize different files. Sometimes it gets really boring, but I really like the people I work for and I don't mind the work at all. I love to organize.

School has been so crazy. I love learning and I am realizing that I definitely want to continue my education someday. There are so many classes that I want to take now in order to become a better teacher. If money wasn't an issue I would love to take more classes. I want to take some special education classes and some TESL classes, but unfortunately I have run out of time. Maybe some summer I will be able to take them. I want to be the type of teacher that can give her students the best that she possibly can. I think the idea of starting a classroom completely freaks me out, but I am so excited. I finally know that this is where God wants me to be and I love feeling like this is where I belong. I have moments where I feel like I am inadequate to teach and I am not going to be fully prepared, but I think that is a natural thing.

Other than that life is pretty good I guess. Thanks for reading and have a good day!

Beth  

long time

Hello everyone,

Well it has been a really long time since I have been on here. Things have been really busy. I have started my senior year. It is so crazy. I do have that extra semester next year, so that makes it a little less scary. I have 18 credits and 6 classes this year. My classes are:

Advanced Grammar

Michigan History

19th Century British Authors

Colonial American History

Diverse Populations and Differentiated Instruction

Secondary Language Arts Methods

Some of the classes actually are interesting this semester, so that is good. There is going to be a lot of work involved though, so hopefully I can keep on top of things. This weekend I am going to my grandma's house, so I am going to have an 8 hour drive ahead of me. That should be interesting. LOL. Anyway, I hope you have a great week!
Beth

Where do I go now?

Well,

Today has been one of those days where you just want to kind of throw in the towel and quit. If I had the option I would probably just lock my bedroom door and never come out. My car, which has already been fixed twice this summer is still not working right. It makes this weird noise that sounds like it is going to fall apart, the seat belt (which is automatic) doesn't want to work, and I need a new muffler. I swear that all of my summer job money is going to go into my car. I have been saving up my money so that this school year I can actually have some money for stuff, but it doesn't look like that is going to happen.

Then my mom was complaining about paying for my supplies to go back to school because I am going to need more of them because I am living in an apartment. I swear she thinks I am made of money. So I have no idea how I am going to pay for that stuff and my stupid car. I am so stressed.

On top of that, today I found out the person I was going to be rooming with isn't coming back. I understand that, but it is just kind of frustrating. Nothing seems to work out the way you planned it. Plus, I found out about it while my mom was outside my room yelling at me.

 I really need to just see and talk to people my age. All day I am with 2 kids and then I get home to see my mom and brother for 3 hours and then they go to bed. I spend the rest of the night by myself. It is really starting to wear on me. I just really don't know what to do.

If you could say a prayer for me right now, that would be amazing. Have a great day!
Beth