Hmm...

Hello,

It has been over a year and I don't know if anyone still reads this, but if you do, hello. :) I have been pondering a lot of different things in my head and thought it would just be better to write them out. Last year, I loved my job, enjoyed the kids, and laughed with them all the time. This year is almost the opposite. I am stressed all the time because a lot of the students do not know how to behave and act like they're in kindergarten. I know they just need to grow up and need guidance, but it is so frustrating and draining to be working in an environment that is so stressful! I have been so exhausted these last couple of weeks that I can hardly function by the time I get out of work. THey always say that you should love your job, and I feel like a lot of days right now I can't say that. I am just so tired and stressed all the time. The students are struggling to keep their heads above water in my classes, and i have changed my teaching and my lesson plans, and I am just not getting anywhere. I am hoping that things will change soon.

I also have a lot of things to decide with the future and outside of school. I would like to go back to school and work on my history degree/social studies certification. I hate making decisions though. Do I take a week long class from the Holocaust Museum in IL or do I take classes at the local university. I also can't find a church that I like which just adds a lot of stress. I am always too tired on the weekends to try a new church because that is a stressful situation itself and I would have to go alone. I am not a fan of going to church alone, but I am just going to have to get over that I guess.

I have decided that this weekend I am going to go do something fun/exciting. I am 24 years old and feel like I live the life of a 40 year old. I get up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, work on more work, read for 30 minutes and go to bed. That is the main routine every day. I am 24. I need to go out and do something fun, maybe get a haircut, buy a new shirt, something. Anything would work at this point. So we shall see how it goes.

Sorry this probably comes off as a list of whines about my life, but it isn't the end of the world and things change, I just have to make it through this rough patch I guess. Please pray for me as I am dealing with all this stuff :) Thanks and I hope things are going great for you!

Long time

 I can't believe how long it has been since I have been on here. I guess my life has been so boring that I didn't feel the need to update. :) The last couple weeks I have been super busy getting ready for my classroom. I am really excited about the opportunity, but there are moments where I am so nervous about it. I think it is because it has been so long since I have been in the classroom. I have meetings starting on the 24th, then on the 26th I have a retreat with the students, and on the 27th the students are in my room. I only have 2 weeks left. I am almost ready, at least I think. I still have to plan half of Bible class and all of grammar class. I think grammar is the class that I am least looking forward to. As of right now I am going to have a total of 15 students between 7th and 8th grade, so it will be nice to have time to give students the attention that they need.

Other than school I don't think there is too much more going on. Esme (my puppy) is growing so fast, but she is starting to be a really good dog

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I hope all of you are having a great week!

Senior year Part 2 of 3

Well,

I am now in my second semester of my senior year. I can not believe that I have this semester and one more left. Life is so crazy sometimes. This week I started classes. They are definitely going to keep me busy. I think between classes and my job and my other responsibilities it is going to be just as crazy as all the other semesters. I just hope this time I get more sleep. LOL.

This week has kind of been crazy for me. Some parts of it almost felt surreal. My days have gone so fast and have been so crazy that the next morning I wake up wondering if they ever happened. Hopefully things will slow down and I can take everything as it comes. This week I have felt like a lot of things are out of my hands and I just have to wait and see how things go. I probably need to get used to this because life isn't always up to me, but I really struggle with this. I want to be able to control things and not be vulnerable to others and to the situations around me. I hate and fear that feeling. I try so hard to control things and keep myself from being vulnerable, but things happen and I end up confused and waiting for the end. I am kind of just rambling and trying to figure things out. I hope this makes sense!

Anyway, I will quit with my ramblings for now!

Have a great day and thanks for reading!

Beth

Wow!

I can not believe how long it has been since I have written on here. Life has been so crazy! I am almost done with the first semester of my senior year, which completely baffles me. Time went so fast. It is kind of scary. This time next year I will be getting ready to graduate. I think at this point I am not even sure if life is good or not. I have been so busy that I haven't really had time to think about it. I now have a job, which fits in my schedule perfectly, and the work isn't too bad. I sit at a computer for a few hours and type in reciepts and try to organize different files. Sometimes it gets really boring, but I really like the people I work for and I don't mind the work at all. I love to organize.

School has been so crazy. I love learning and I am realizing that I definitely want to continue my education someday. There are so many classes that I want to take now in order to become a better teacher. If money wasn't an issue I would love to take more classes. I want to take some special education classes and some TESL classes, but unfortunately I have run out of time. Maybe some summer I will be able to take them. I want to be the type of teacher that can give her students the best that she possibly can. I think the idea of starting a classroom completely freaks me out, but I am so excited. I finally know that this is where God wants me to be and I love feeling like this is where I belong. I have moments where I feel like I am inadequate to teach and I am not going to be fully prepared, but I think that is a natural thing.

Other than that life is pretty good I guess. Thanks for reading and have a good day!

Beth  

long time

Hello everyone,

Well it has been a really long time since I have been on here. Things have been really busy. I have started my senior year. It is so crazy. I do have that extra semester next year, so that makes it a little less scary. I have 18 credits and 6 classes this year. My classes are:

Advanced Grammar

Michigan History

19th Century British Authors

Colonial American History

Diverse Populations and Differentiated Instruction

Secondary Language Arts Methods

Some of the classes actually are interesting this semester, so that is good. There is going to be a lot of work involved though, so hopefully I can keep on top of things. This weekend I am going to my grandma's house, so I am going to have an 8 hour drive ahead of me. That should be interesting. LOL. Anyway, I hope you have a great week!
Beth